Update on life.

well since everyone thinks i need to update more often so I am.

Thanksgiving Break:

Wednesday- Thursday: Well let's just say it was an interesting one. When I tried to leave on wednesday the weather was really really crappy and I couldn't make it home so I had to stay in a hotel well it was a hotel/casino, and to eat i had to go to the casino and so while i was there i gambled a little, and lets just say i lost all of it! mind you it was only like ten dollars, but still it sucked. then the next day when i finally got home i had to leave again and drive another TWO HOURS to my grandparents in Rochester, which luckily i did not have to drive this my broseph did. and the roads where still crappy! but we made it there and hung out with my family there, and then i found out that my cousin is pregnant, which she is not married, and it is with this guy named Chi-Chi who technically isnt a legal U.S. Citizen. also she is 21 think? yes 21. but i guess i am excited for her. and i hope she has a happy and healthy baby.

Friday-Sunday: on friday i woke up at 545AM to go to target with katie! haha i spent like $60 on movies. what can i say, i love movies! then i worked at 9 am to 5pm, which totally was NOT cool because i have never worked an 8 hour shift in my life, but it was easier than i thought i was going to be. then after work i went and hung out with my bayboo katie. and we hung out at her house with her mom, which i just love her so much. and then we went to see August Rush, i TOTALLY LOVED IT! except Robin Williams character kind of scared me. but other than that it was awesome, and i cried a little at the end. then saturday i had to work again but it was only from 10AM - 115PM. then when i got home i got ready to have thanksgiving again, with larry's family. which i TOTALLY enjoyed, which was really suprised by. i usually feel out of place with them, but this time i felt that i fit in and that belonged there so that was awesome. plus we are just a hilarious group of people. then after they all left i went over to katies again, and we watched Blades of Glory, which was a hilarious movie. then on sunday i went to back to school.

Last couple of weeks:

The last couple of weeks have been going up and down. one day I am happy and the next I am just depressed as hell. mainly because of boys. they are just so lame, and always loving someone else besides me...but what else is new. but with Ian i have realized that i need to move on and that i know i will always have feelings for him but that is expected from your first love. but i need to realize not everything is meant to go my way, even though lately i feel like nothing is going my way. and with jared i mean i will always wonder what could have happened, but i guess nothing that i really regret. um, i am having fun just hanging with my roomie megan, she is just awesome and i realize that we understand each other well which is i think why we can live together so well. on tuesday i started tanning, which i am loving, i just realized how happy it makes me feel, plus i just look sick pale, it just doesnt work for me. also i was just sick, which sucked, it was mainly just a cold, but it still left me feeling weak, stuffy nosed, and lose of voice, but i am over it now. also today i totally got my Fire/Rescue sweatpants, and they werent exactly what i thought they were going to be but i still like them.

The Future:

Well i am excited for xmas break just to be home and not here. plus i dont have to think about grades and school for 4 weeks! also it kinda sucks for Spring Break this year because i doubt i will be able to do anything because my dad is tight on cash this year for xmas and so i doubt he will buy me my ticket, so i dont know what to do, i was looking at tickets and the cheapest i could find was $370 so i dont know.

well that is life right now, hopefully it will start going up hill and start going the way i would like it too, but i guess God knows what is best for me, and it just have to start relying on him more, than relying on myself and material or earthly things.

okay that is all for now.

Song of the Day:

"The Dance" Garth Brooks

"I could have missed the pain, but I'd of had to miss the dance."

thoughts:
even though i hated the pain i wouldnt give it back for the world, because at that moment in time you meant the world to me. and in the end it will always just be me.

Video of ME!

New Layoot!

I was bored with my old lay out, so I decided to switch it up a bit. I hope you all like it, if not well then TOO BAD!


Well tonight I am going to a christmas parade in Duluth, ironic, its not even thanksgiving yet.

I think Thanksgiving is one of the most over looked holidays, everyone usually forgets about it and is like 'screw thanksgiving I want it to be Christmas!' well I LOVE YOU Thanksgiving, you are delicious and praised in my book!

Ice Cream and Whitney Houston!

right now i am eating a ice cream cone and listening to Whitney Houston.....and i am really liking life right now! and i dont really know why, i just am. not much has changed i am just looking at the bright side of things! plus a little Whitney always help. haha.

i am really excited for next fall and living in the cities! i just cant wait! it is going to be so much fun! me, Kurtie, Sura, Urddison, and Urbby are just going to have a blast!

i also recommend the next time you have an ice cream cone, mix it up! i had 3 different flavors tonight, Cookies and Cream, Vanilla, and Chocolate! yum....going through the flavors were wonderful...so i say TRY IT! you most likely wont be disappointed.

'You Caught Me!'

well megan and i rearranged our room again for the 4th time this year, haha. we just get so bored that we have to change it up. and i really like this one by far. our room looks so much bigger. and we have a kickin dance Urea!

'Wait, I thought I had more?!' 'Whitney, you know they way to my heart....well sort of.'

well that is it for now....until next time.

P.S. I totally cannot wait for my Fire/Resuce sweatpants, that my friend ordered me. They are basically for firefighters (which he wants to be) and we talked about it one day. so he signed me up for a pair, and they are going to have my name of it and everything! I will let you know when i get them!

Life sucks.....but it is okay too.

so lately life has kinda sucked, in the "love department" i realized that the man that i love, is more than likely on his way to getting over me and moving on back to his ex girlfriend, which that whole thing annoys me, because she says that she thinks "he's the one for her" yet she says she might get back together with her most recent ex, it is just stupid and i dont think she deserves him. but besides that, my other friend got back together with his ex as well and she is one of those crazy psycho girlfriends, who basically wont let him hang out with me. he says he will hang out with me, but do you think he does no. also before he got back together with his ex he was in my room EVERYDAY! and now i havent hung out with him since he got back together with her (which is about a month). he makes time for everything else in his life but me and my roommate meg. so that pisses me off too. (also before this he told me that he like(s)(ed) me, like seriously liked me, and then 2 weeks later gets back together with her). so it is all just really annoying, and i just sometimes wish i didnt have a heart for people to break.

also i just cant wait to get out of this stupid town, i hate superior so much, i mean i like a few people here but for the most part i hate it. it is a bad environment for me. i dont think i have ever been so depressed and angry so much in my life. at home, yes i do get depressed, but i have people there who know how to make it all better and that i can just be me around. i dont have to watch what i say or do. i can just do it with knowing that they wont get upset with me, or angry and then not talk to me. i dont know, i just miss home. i really hope everything works out like i want it to next year. if it doesnt i have no idea what i am going to do. boo, i miss high school.....and my real friends.

on a happier note, totally got my backpack this weekend, and i went with backpack one, and i LOVE IT! it is awesome, and i am totally rockin it! ha. plus i got to see my helena this weekend, which was well needed. AND i get to go home next weekend too!!!! yay! and then i get to not only see Katie, but addison AND sara! man i cant wait to see everyone! and i get to work again! which doesnt sound exciting but it is when it is my NEW job! yay!

wow i cant believe i am almost half way done with this year already! and with college as well! man...life is coming at me fast lately. i just hope i can keep up with it.

Song of the Week: Gravedigger: Dave Matthews Band

Cyrus Jones 1810 to 1913

Made his great grandchildren believeYou could live to 103

A hundred and three is forever when you’re just a little kidSo, Cyrus Jones live forever

Gravedigger

When you dig my grave

Could you make it shallow

So that I can feel the rain

Gravedigger

Muriel Stonewall 1903 to 1954

She lost both of her babies in the second great war

Now, you should never have to watch as your only children are lowered in the ground

I mean - never have to bury your own babies

Gravedigger

When you dig my grave

Could you make it shallow

So that I can feel the rain

Gravedigger

Ring around the rosey

Pocket full o'posey

Ashes to ashes

{Musical intro}

We all fall down

Gravedigger

When you dig my grave

Could you make it shallow

So that I can feel the rain

Oh Gravedigger

Little Mikey Carson '67 to '75

He rode his bike like the devil until the day he died

When he grows up he wants to be Mr. Vertigo on the flying trapeze

Oh, 1940 to 1992--

Gravedigger

When you dig my grave

could you make it shallow

So that I can feel the rain

Grave digger

When you dig my grave

Could you make it shallow

So that I can feel the rain

I can feel the rain

I can feel the rain

Gravedigger

When you dig my grave

Could you make it shallow

So that I can feel the rain

Gravedigger

Grave digger