Update on life.

well since everyone thinks i need to update more often so I am.

Thanksgiving Break:

Wednesday- Thursday: Well let's just say it was an interesting one. When I tried to leave on wednesday the weather was really really crappy and I couldn't make it home so I had to stay in a hotel well it was a hotel/casino, and to eat i had to go to the casino and so while i was there i gambled a little, and lets just say i lost all of it! mind you it was only like ten dollars, but still it sucked. then the next day when i finally got home i had to leave again and drive another TWO HOURS to my grandparents in Rochester, which luckily i did not have to drive this my broseph did. and the roads where still crappy! but we made it there and hung out with my family there, and then i found out that my cousin is pregnant, which she is not married, and it is with this guy named Chi-Chi who technically isnt a legal U.S. Citizen. also she is 21 think? yes 21. but i guess i am excited for her. and i hope she has a happy and healthy baby.

Friday-Sunday: on friday i woke up at 545AM to go to target with katie! haha i spent like $60 on movies. what can i say, i love movies! then i worked at 9 am to 5pm, which totally was NOT cool because i have never worked an 8 hour shift in my life, but it was easier than i thought i was going to be. then after work i went and hung out with my bayboo katie. and we hung out at her house with her mom, which i just love her so much. and then we went to see August Rush, i TOTALLY LOVED IT! except Robin Williams character kind of scared me. but other than that it was awesome, and i cried a little at the end. then saturday i had to work again but it was only from 10AM - 115PM. then when i got home i got ready to have thanksgiving again, with larry's family. which i TOTALLY enjoyed, which was really suprised by. i usually feel out of place with them, but this time i felt that i fit in and that belonged there so that was awesome. plus we are just a hilarious group of people. then after they all left i went over to katies again, and we watched Blades of Glory, which was a hilarious movie. then on sunday i went to back to school.

Last couple of weeks:

The last couple of weeks have been going up and down. one day I am happy and the next I am just depressed as hell. mainly because of boys. they are just so lame, and always loving someone else besides me...but what else is new. but with Ian i have realized that i need to move on and that i know i will always have feelings for him but that is expected from your first love. but i need to realize not everything is meant to go my way, even though lately i feel like nothing is going my way. and with jared i mean i will always wonder what could have happened, but i guess nothing that i really regret. um, i am having fun just hanging with my roomie megan, she is just awesome and i realize that we understand each other well which is i think why we can live together so well. on tuesday i started tanning, which i am loving, i just realized how happy it makes me feel, plus i just look sick pale, it just doesnt work for me. also i was just sick, which sucked, it was mainly just a cold, but it still left me feeling weak, stuffy nosed, and lose of voice, but i am over it now. also today i totally got my Fire/Rescue sweatpants, and they werent exactly what i thought they were going to be but i still like them.

The Future:

Well i am excited for xmas break just to be home and not here. plus i dont have to think about grades and school for 4 weeks! also it kinda sucks for Spring Break this year because i doubt i will be able to do anything because my dad is tight on cash this year for xmas and so i doubt he will buy me my ticket, so i dont know what to do, i was looking at tickets and the cheapest i could find was $370 so i dont know.

well that is life right now, hopefully it will start going up hill and start going the way i would like it too, but i guess God knows what is best for me, and it just have to start relying on him more, than relying on myself and material or earthly things.

okay that is all for now.

Song of the Day:

"The Dance" Garth Brooks

"I could have missed the pain, but I'd of had to miss the dance."

thoughts:
even though i hated the pain i wouldnt give it back for the world, because at that moment in time you meant the world to me. and in the end it will always just be me.