The Perks of Being a Wallflower

I finished 'the perks of being a wallflower' last night, and out of the whole book I took this away from the last couple pages from the book.

"I'm not the way I am because of what I dreamt and remembered about my 'aunt helen'. That's what I figured out when things got quiet. And I think that's very important to know. It made things feel clear and together. Don't get me wrong. I know what happened was important. And I needed to remember it. . . So, I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons. And maybe we'll never know most of them. But even if we don't have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them."

Then last night I had a dream, that I was with someone I loved and was happy. Then later in the dream my father was there along with my mom, and step-mom, my two best friends...and this weird random friend of my dad's. But anyways, my dad was being a jerk, and in the dream I finally told him how I felt about everything. I was crying and screaming uncontrollably, and barely able to get the words out, and I didn't even finish because i woke up, heart racing, breathing hard. and i was so angry that I woke up and wasn't able to finish saying what I needed to say. but I do remember this, the way his face looked...and I was happy that he was hurting and felt bad........I guess what I am saying is I know I cant change what happened to me, or how my father is, but I can change how I let it affect me. and I wont let it hinder me anymore, because the only father I need to love me is MY LORD and he loves me more than my real father ever could concieve! and because I AM FREE!

updating....

my life at the moment is quite dull. i work everyday from 9-530. and i hate it. i dont like having time to do anything. everyday my day is the same. and it sucks. but school is starting soon and then i just have to worry about that mostly. ahhh....i have to take the bus for school and i am nervous for that. i have never really taken the bus anywhere before. my luck i will get lost. hopefully not.

i decided that along with graphic design and visual communications, i also want to take photography and digital imaging. i was reading through it and i just loved everything i read, and want to do it all. i hope i can fit it all in somehow. hopefully it wont add too much more schooling on to the, basically, four more plus years that i have to complete now. i guess i am happy that i have four years left of college. then i dont have to "real" adult just quite yet.

i have decided that i would LOVE to live in either oregon, or the state of washington. i would just love to live on the northwest coast. especially on a port town. i love everything about port towns, i would enjoy living in a place like that.

my birthday is on sunday, and i am excited for it, even though it is crazy because i am going to be 21! i know it is not old, but i feel like it is well considering that i will always see myself as 17 years old. age is an odd thing. sometimes i think about what if we never kept track of our age or birthdays. same with time. i would like to live in a world where we dont have clocks. when i went to the BWCA we werent allowed to bring watches....well you could be it was strongly discouraged. and i loved not knowing the time and you just felt free from everything, and your body just went with the flow, and let nature tell it when to go to bed and when to wake up. it was refreshing.

lately i have been slightly obsessed with joe jonas from the jonas brothers. not really sure why well ok i think he is really cute, but he was in my dreams for a while and pops in occasionally. i think if we ever had children the would have the best hair ever. i definitely need to mate with someone who has great hair.....and a killer back.

well i have nothing else to really write about. maybe i will update more often....most likely not.

which one?

Okay, so in about 3 or 4 weeks, I am getting new phone and I have it narrowed down to two phones, the first is the new LG EnV 2, which I would get in the Maroon color. The second is the Blackberry Pearl, which either comes in white or pink, so obviously I would get it in white. They both have camera's, and QWERTY texting, but choice one has both T9 and QWERTY. Also with the Blackberry I would have to pay an extra $30 for email, and internet. I would not with the EnV. So let me know which one you like better.

The Inspirer

You Are An ENFP

The Inspirer You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends. You are also unconventional, irreverent, and unimpressed by authority and rules. Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives. You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're quite the storyteller! In love, you are quite the charmer. And you are definitely willing to risk your heart. You often don't follow through with your flirting or professed feelings. And you do break a lot of hearts. At work, you are driven but not a workaholic. You just always seem to enjoy what you do. You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist. How you see yourself: compassionate, unselfish, and understanding When other people don't get you, they see you as: gushy, emotional, and unfocused

What's Your Personality Type?

I Met Some Famous People!

So, as you can tell, I have met some VERY famous people! That's right they are GEORGE CLOONEY AND RENEE ZELLWEGER!!! It was awesome! I shook both of their hands and got both of their autographs! Those two are the nicest celebrities I have ever met! (well they are the only actors I have ever met) ahhh, and George is so DREAMY in real life!

I am working on my bad habits....

I think being at UWS is good for me, as much as I miss home, and my wonderful friends I am starting to see why God has put me here.....or at least one reason. There are certain people here that tell me the truth, and get annoyed when I don't stop. Because of them I am starting to change things that I never thought I would be able to change. The thing I am working on the most is my complaining, which I know can be pretty bad at times. I am really trying not to complain so much, and to just keep it to myself. Also, I think because it is two of my close guy friends, I am getting a different view of it. Plus, I want to attract a male someday that I will spend my life with, and the best way is to listen to other guys. Anyways, I am coming to realize that it is really hard for me to do, because honestly, it is just what I do, but now that I am trying I realize how much I actually complain, and man can I be annoying. haha. I also realized that I use complaining as a form of humor sometimes. I have also realized, that most of the time I am not complaining to a particular person, but that I am just stating the fact that I am hot, or cold....or whatever I am "complaining" about, but since people are listening/ in hearing range, they think that I am, and don't give me a chance to explain myself, or just don't care. But, yes I am working on it, and I realize that I love my guy friends (Steve and Jared). Lately I have been hanging out with those two a lot, and I just can't get enough of them. The three of us together makes a good combo. I am really excited for next year too. Those two are living together, and it will just be good times when I go hang out with them! I thank God for those two, because there is no way this semester would be this fun without them. So, in conclusion, I am working on a better, improved Katelyn....so watch out!

Another Queen Song to fall in love with!!! mainly for you Babby!

"Don't Stop Me Now"

Queen

Tonight I'm gonna have myself a real good time

I feel alive and the world it's turning inside out Yeah!

I'm floating around in ecstasy

So don't stop me now don't stop me

'Cause I'm having a good time having a good time

I'm a shooting star leaping through the skies

Like a tiger defying the laws of gravity

I'm a racing car passing by like Lady Godiva

I'm gonna go go go

There's no stopping me

I'm burning through the skies Yeah!

Two hundred degrees That's why they call me Mister Fahrenheit

I'm trav'ling at the speed of light

I wanna make a supersonic man of you

Don't stop me now I'm having such a good time

I'm having a ball don't stop me now

If you wanna have a good time just give me a call

Don't stop me now ('Cause I'm having a good time)

Don't stop me now (Yes I'm having a good time)

I don't want to stop at all

I'm a rocket ship on my way to Mars

On a collision course

I am a satellite I'm out of control

I am a sex machine ready to reload

Like an atom bomb about to

Oh oh oh oh oh explode

I'm burning through the skies Yeah!

Two hundred degrees

That's why they call me Mister Fahrenheit

I'm trav'ling at the speed of light

I wanna make a supersonic woman out of you

Don't stop me don't stop me don't stop me Hey hey hey!

Don't stop me don't stop me Ooh ooh ooh (I like it)

Don't stop me have a good time good time

Don't stop me don't stop me

Ooh ooh Alright

I'm burning through the skies Yeah!

Two hundred degrees

That's why they call me Mister Fahrenheit

I'm trav'ling at the speed of light

I wanna make a supersonic woman of you

Don't stop me now

I'm having such a good time

I'm having a ball don't stop me now

If you wanna have a good time

Just give me a call

Don't stop me now ('Cause I'm having a good time)

Don't stop me now (Yes I'm having a good time)

I don't wanna stop at all

La la la la laaaa

La la la la

La la laa laa laa laaa

La la laa la la la la la laaa hey!!....